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noone but me from URL @ 10:43 PM this will be a random post. because i want to say stuff. like- CICAK MAN! HAHAHAH. (lovingly pronounced as kikakmun) and today if you wre to choke on a fishball, i have a cert to carry out *ahem, cardiopulmonary resuscitation. MWAHAHAH. But don't let Rupini come near you cos she will break manymany of your rib bones, hahah. Tomorrow im going to wear a mermaid dress, and then good riddance to dresses for a loong time mann. But as of tmr i would have worn No1,2,3 & 4! :D There's only 11 official days +2 unofficial days left man! - I miss many people & it gets as bad till the extent i feel that i have a disease. I admire selfless people quite a lot & in return im beginning to despise selfsih people; even that in me. I wish there was a book of answers, cos although living in denial is better, suddenly i feel im ready to face the truth. But they say don't ask & you'll be told no lies. & im beginning to think damn lowly of people who say things they don't mean. Watch it with me. Say it like you mean it. Don't be pathetically cheap. & other things just leave me biting my lip, point blank shocked. How do you ans to someone who asks, " would you be angry at someone who knew she was but didn't tell you tt she was dying and then died". & allllll the other random thoughts just floating about in and out. Random and yet, upsettingly relevant; damn. - i have freakin bad panda eyes that someone sitting faaaar away could notice & here i am updating my blog when i have 2 loooong days facing me. Goooodnight. cos thinking of you, gets me through my day. 11/25/2007 noone but me from URL @ 11:23 PM  MY SUPERSEXY EX! caught in action yo! She was trying to woo me, mwahahha! I was guarding the door whilst pat was bathing and you see that towel-rag there? It had a dead lizard underneath. A squashed dead lizard with blood oooozing out. Disgusting shyte. 54th CLT Course. Tomorrow is the start of sth new. HAHA. Im too excited to fall asleep now. Pride, Passion, Professionalism, Yo! (The Yo i add la) Okay, i don't wna add anyth else here, now. But i must thank PATRICIA TAN for sparing me the artistic horror by sleeping over & helping me add all the illustrations to my mutuals (: THANKYOU! i treat you to the sup kambing laa! hahaha. Oh, i found it weird when my pltnmates msged me good luck for clt course. Its been us wishing the cadets for so long, that when i got the good luck msgs for the camp, it suddenly felt weird. hahaha. Money. & im freakin broke mansxz. My handphone bill is over $300 cos i havent paid for manymanymany months. Preeeety dead, cos uhm, the money cant drop frm heaven right? & so ya, line might get disconnected, call the new house phone no (: But, grahh, why cant i be more pampered and have my bills paid for me. Sheeeeeshkebabs. Prom sucked my moneyyyy. money money money, you're so funny; you're such a meanie, cos you dont like me. HAHA okay wth. But its got a tune okay! :D Eh im quite high now ah. Haha i wonder why. & there was this night. I had the moon at one side, the sun on the other, the stars above & the one person i wanted to be with next to me, all at the same time. Picture perfect (: Okay, i think i should be going to sleep now cos i have to wake up freakin earlyyyy. But im still high; maybe i shall talk myself to sleep, haha. & this was a post; a weird post. Rudolph the Red nose raindeer, had a very shiney nose!
11/24/2007 noone but me from URL @ 5:42 PM ( (5th June 2006) (today) good afternoon! im doing my mutuals now. (: hmm, comments? i picked ugly colours for vanguards, markers finishing ink, made a mistake in the centre of the page & im hungry. im getting better at using the stencil. but i don't feel very artistic. Im gna wait for pattan to magically transform my mutuals (: HAH. cheers! )This isn't really a post. 11/22/2007 noone but me from URL @ 10:30 PM  I was trying to command my chickenwing squad.I guess i was pretty successful cos they've even fallen in yo! Haha, i find this a pretty amusing picture. On a lighternote, i miss my CCA. Well. Delta Chalet was Awesome, duh! We could really live together. I'll update more when i get the pictures; or not. Watching horror movies is damn fun! HAHA. Eh delta, horror movie marathon want not? :D Im still freakin sick and its getting on my nerves. Suria & Nish think that the sound of me blowing my nose is like a toilet bowl flushing, HAHA. Its thaat bad laa. Talking to self is normal! So be consoled everyone who thought you were crazy cos you did that. I have self-confessed people who talk to themselves (*coughs lichu, muu, adlin) & since so many people do it; uh, you're not cool if you dont. haha. okay goodnight :) this was a randombutnotsorandom update. you'll never know dear, how much i love you. 11/19/2007 noone but me from URL @ 10:45 PM Are you gonna be my Girl? Computer's not revived but i stole my brother's CPU and tadaa! Well, many, many things have happened. There was the 4i chalet!  I love this class of mine and its definitely been the BEST CLASS ever in my 10 years of education. Satay & chicken wings caught fire, water & banana bombs, dvds & late night chats, walks & beach fun, ball games & chair games, Friends :) There was Prom Night!
The night was Fantabulous, everyone looked glam & i didn't quite see anyone who was outrageous looking, which is phew. Dinner was aha, but the programmes were pretty entertaining. Mambo Queen was the Best, Adlin should have won hands down la please. Delta Chalet! Randommm! Then there was another thing.T & im freakin sick. & im kinda bothered about sth else but im pushing it out for a bit. & im gna miss Jessica Arnanta Tjung quite horribly, dammit ): 11/10/2007 noone but me from URL @ 12:35 AM NIGHTLIFE NIGHT! The night was lovelyyy! It was astonishingly quiet along the Singapore river this time though. (I wna talk about sth, but i dont know how! Rupini!) Buttt, of course we were like heck-it, and we conquered making loads of noise. We got scared of policemen and sneakily maneouvered ourselves to avoid them, ahahah. The way we did it was freakin funny! We walked up and down up and down & we realised that the policemen werent leaving, so we walked somewhere else. Walkedwalkedwalked. Drankdrankdrank. We've picked our table at Hilton for our bet already (: 1/2/2011, the fateful day, ahahha. Then we stood along the ndp bridge and called out to tourists in the bumboats. Deaf pigs ah, people shout "CHEERRRRS! YOOOOO! EHHHHH! LOOK LAHHH!" also cannot hear. Stooopid. & she made a stupid joke. Me: eh, why's that banglah carrying a ladder at this time of the night? Her: Cos he wants to grow taller. OMGGGG, for a moment it didnt register that Rupini said that. I turned stared at her for a loooong time then LOLed like helll, hahaha. & then we made our wishes for our future in a glass bottle, held it shut & threw it into the River at the count of three. Our wishes are gna come true cos the bottles danced before sinking (: I like that moment quite a lot! So we continued walkinggggg. We wre looking for 7-11 and along the way sth happened. Rupini was pushing me into a bush, so i pushed back la. Buttthennn! She realllly fell omg! She fell like how sleeping beauty would fall asleep on the bed, but she fell flat onto the bushes! OMG damn funnnnny! hahahah. Then we pulled a stunt at 7-11, that was funnier, HAHAHA! Well. Came back to outside the Esp area &Pesta Raya was gg on again and we saw the Sgt Dollah dude from Police & Thief. I dared Rupini to shout "SGT DOLLAH!", but she chicken nehneh la! Then i wanted to shout, but i *coughs, wanted to protect Rupini from all the mats around; later they attack how? Mwahahah. sat & talked then walked to Merlion, there were fishiesss! & i jumped onto a step w/o realising it had water & so kna splashed :x But damn curfews. So we caught a cab and went home. Picture Perfect night :D Loads more stuff happend, but not for you to know la! Only one thing more to improve huh Rupini. % was Lame! HAHAHA. Loves (: DEEPAVALI! Fast-forward. My favourtest part of Deepavali would be when my cousins and i would allll sit in a big circle and my aunty would feed us all (: I have many cousins, me the 2nd youngest & the oldest i think 30+. & its tradition that we never start till everyone arrives. & when my aunty's feeding us we'll all be talking and catching up. The usual jokes, teases, gossips, lectures and whatnots. I love it, lovelovelove it cos its perfect. No, this really is perfect & i dont have to justify myself. So, Deepavali this year was good. Cooked, sat around, chatted, ate (duh). Goodfood (duh). & they gambled too! (my dad was thr so i couldnt, boo) & i was sitting in between my cousin & cousin-in-law. Both males. & they were winning, one after the other one after the other, & they were saying its kid's luck, ie: Me! &! all of a sudden my cousin won and thenthenthennnn, he kissed me on the cheek, ZOMG I GOT A SHOCK! & then my cousin-in-law kissed me too, OMMG! I think everyone was shocked! Like uhh, my cousin is 24 and cousin-in-law 26. Both married males! my dad went "Eh! Even i havent kissed my daughter in years and you all do this to her!" and my aunty was like "She's not 6 anymore know, 16 la. Cannot anyhow do all these". and my cousins were like "Gone la, tmr there got pimple & gone la, the husband/wife gna come behind you!" (It was said in tamil, so direct translation doesnt do it justice) HAHAHA. So Deepavali was lovely, but the family is LOVE. We might not have perfect families, but the fact that we all held on and that we still had each other at the end of the day, thats a family man. I love my family. DEEPAVALI AT RUPINI'S! Yay another lovely day! BUT, stoopid i tell you. They forced me to wear my punjabi suit, wlauu. I've never worn a punjabi suit and walked around before, in my entire life! Reallly. (unless the years tt i couldnt rmbr) & i wore it todayyyyy, i dont like ah. hahaha. & yeah, it is with shame that i say that, oops. I like saree! if that counts! (: But anw, ate the kueh kueh, talked, had Awesome lunch, talkedtalked, played the whistling sparklers then said goodbye to Nat & Lwin. Rup, Nish, Suria, Narm & I changed into black tees & shorts and then played with the sec1 kids! OMG, it felt damn good to just unwind and play. Played catching, colour game, block catching, pepsi-cola, twister and then *coughs Wrustling. HAHAH. Everything was love and i wouldnt do the joy of it all justice if i were to type it out. After the sec 1 kids left, it was just the 5 of us, loves (: We did stuffs in Rupini's room, pictures/videos shall not leave there, OKAY? I almost broke my leg & my ahahahs were compressed. Nish & i always wound up in awkard positions and i think she might have kissed me, mwahaha. & we kept collapsing on one another which was HAHAH. okay shits, it was really damn fun man! OH! HHAHAHAHAH. SURIA BECAME SURFER GIRL! HAHAHAHHA. with aladin's mat yo! dont play play ah, HAHAHAH. Then we changed back into our suits, (Devils to Angels! :) Had dinner & then left at 9.30! Lovely day with lovely people! (: (i just re-read the para & it sounds as tho we did sth sick. nolahh!) Random! -I FOUGHT A FLYING COCKROACH TODAY! I WON I WON I WON! HURRAY FOR JUSTICE! (: Stoopid. Think what, fly fly fly i scared ah. yeah fine i screamed, but when i took the baygon, AHAHA I TELL YOU, I HEARD THAT EW-THING scream. MWAHAHA. i sprayed it & it died a torturous death, mwahahah. that made me really happy! killing cockroaches is an accomplishment, flying cockroaches is FOOWOOO! :D I HATE COCKROACHES OMG EW. & to think i was just telling someone that i havent seent a cockroach ever since i shifted :x Your bestESTEST friend ah, Ew. -i lost $15 today, it just dropped out of my pouch ): heartpain ah dammit. -Shopping tmr with Adlin & Nurin! Kudos :D GOODNIGHT GOODNIGHT! GOGO POWERRANGERRRRSSS TO ALL MCQ TAKERS! BITTTTTT MORE ONLY YO! 11/06/2007 noone but me from URL @ 11:51 PM Liberation means smiles as such.  Sorry to all who are not done, but!My freaking bigfatOs are overrrrr! :D Finally, after thousands of cues to scream, this would be the cue to laugh hysterically! MWAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH! :D & so, i've wrapped up my 4 years of education in 15 days, over 17 papers. IstilldontqutiegethowtheOsmeasuresyourintelligencebutwhatever. Lets hope the results do my four years in Cedar credit; & for you and you and you and you as well! Aftermath of Os! -I cannot stop smiling and laughing to myself. -I finally feel like i can breathe again. -I sit around just to know that i can waste time. -Every free moment is spent planning my next few days! (: I realised that during the course of the Os, i never quite appreciated the 7 days in a week. It was like one day just merged and melted into the next. Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday alllll felt the same with waking up early, going to school, coming home, studying, sleeping. Routined-It was like what they said: you get so caught up with the world that you forget to stop and smell the flowers. It all felt like one tiresomely looooong day mann; that of course, saw sundown today. Mwahahaha! Somehow from today each day of the week holds significance. & i'll make sure each day doesnt melt into the next anymore till the As. Life's too short to not appreciate the days mann. GCE O Level Examinations. English- I liked my compo. Situational writing, compre and summary were alright but not fantastic. Htl- Paper was easy compared to prelims, but my tamil sucked. Struggled to write essay, struggled to think in tamil, struggled with sentence making in paper 2. Emaths- Okay overall i think; couldnt do the stoopid Similarity & Congruence questions in both papers though. Amaths- Okay overall too i think; couldnt do RV when i after that i realised it was reaalllly chiiiicken. Phy- Pretty doable; mistakes here and there. Chem- Thought was quite tough, but okay-doable. MCQ- Pretty doable. SS- I thought it was okay, until i realised my last SBQ ans was wrong! 7m ): Geog- Horribly screwed up. Couldnt get the points down, couldnt plan my answers. Lit- Macbeth was alright, had repetition of answers for Poetry, First 2 paragraphs of SOB que 1 were irrelevant, the remaining paragraphs were slightly off. Could not describe effectiveness of opening paragraph of Greatest Gift, could not pen down properly effectiveness of opening of the story i chose, Vertial Ladder. Ie: Totally disappointing & pretty screwed up. Overall: I was pretty disappointed with SSGeog and Lit. I needed my 1 from SSGeog but i doubt i'd be getting it anymore. & i was aiming for a 2 for lit, but thats almost laughable at now. & i always hate doing badly for lit cos its a subject that i've always wanted to do well for :x ah well. Hopefully Eng, Emaths, Amaths & Science dont screw up on me. But i still kinda wna believe that 6 is a possible score, mwahaha. Dont burst my bubble i tell you, you dont have the right to. shall enjoy the delusionment till the day of results. &&&!Deepavali! Im excited! Cos i havent met up with the Relatives in donkey years. I've missed the long lazy afternoons spent with them. Those days were Love. Sooo, on Deepavali im going to enjoy all the noise, conversations, songs, foooooood & of course the many laughs we normally have. I think this is the first year im actually excited for Deepavali! But i dont know if im considered a celebrant of Deepavali cos i only visit 1 aunt, heh. But this year Rupini's & Nish's houses too! (: Im still more excited for Christmas though, Woooohooo! Anw, i miss all my aunties and cousins luhhhh. Random! - my books are everywhere and i dont know what to do with them yet. AHHA. I dont want to burn them la, save the Earth yo! -i cant wait for my classmates and the rest of my pltnmates to finish the BFOs. -i cant wait to shop, but i can wait for prom. -im stuck to the song 'over you'. -i enjoy random middle-of-the-night phone conversations! (: -i think go-out-today-come- back-tomorrow is cool. -im anticipating early morning convos with satu again! -i still kinda cant believe im through with the Os. HAHA. Tomorrow! Im going to cut my fringe(!) go jogging(!) go to NLB, borrow 8 books(!) then meet Rupini for our date with Mr Night(!!!).  & we skipped to the beat of freedom. Credits of photos go to V.Suria Priya :D (She'll partake in these pictures on the 13th, its coming ex its coming!) 11/04/2007 noone but me from URL @ 8:52 AM REEEEWIIIIIIINNNNNNDDDDDDD! R. Rupini turned my day around by 360x10^(infinity-1) degrees :D So i told her i might be a bit moody, but i saw funny things at city hall, and a particular part c who made me LOL. & indian bunks, whom i dont see everyday, that by the time she came i was already like some fool smiling/laughing to myself. Talkedtalkedstudiedstudiedateate! & the cast of Thondan was there including Rupini's Vishnu! ; and ommmgggg i was staring like so freaaakiiinnngggg a lot at the whole bunch just to see when Vishnu was alone so that we could prey upon him to take a picture, FOR RUPINI. & when finallllllyyyy he was leaving i was actually ready to go out and ask him to take picture, even though he was in a big bunch of famous Indian people, rupini the foooooooool refused to come out :x EEEEEEEDIOOOOOOOOTTTTT. But he smiled at US & yeah i think he's quite charming too! HAHAH. But. Stupid, this girl Rupini is another act brave but actually chicken nehneh, HAHAHA, chicken nehneh, havent said that in a loooooooong time. Okay yeah, aft eating we talked for a bit & it was a lovely conversation. We had sunken into the sofas and with our legs outstretched we gazed at Singapore City and talked away (: I LIKE! Okay but yeah, we studied quite a bit too. Its good to study with her cos although she cant ZIP, instd of the normal sleeping/eating breaks we take at home, we talk (: I think i don't talk much but i like to talk. hahaha. & there was another conversation which had a meaningful song playing in the background that made us tear :x & theeenn, someone almost gave me a heartattack; rupini gave that face of hers, that face only reserved for whenever she sees ghosts, hahaha! but it was like my heart flew out then i had to catch it, put it back, and grasp my chest just to get it pumping again, mwahahaha. & meeting that someone made my day 360x10^infinity times :D like a cherry on a pie, you made my day go another high. (HAHAHHA, lame) talked for a bit more, Rupini went snortsnort a bit more then we packed up and left. Then our makebelief nightlife began again, MWHAHAHAH! hahahah i acted drunk, lol. secret ah secret, haaaaha. BUT, our nighlife's cominggg sooooooonnnnn :D We wanted to study under a random lamppost, so we were walking along the river. There were many lampposts but none to study under. We took a few funny pictures though, hehh. & there were crazy minahs who like just wanted to come next to us to scream :x Settled in some defy-gravity place but the security chased us out, so we headed to Starbuck and rotted there. & my dad called to yell at me asking why i was out so late. HAHA, i found that funny cos he was just yelling and everytime i said "but" he would just "don't but me"; so i ended up just holding the phone and cont with lit, nyeheh. It reminded me of Suria's & Nurin's song for my dad, but i cant remember how it goes. & theeeeeen, waiting for the taxi was like another adventure. We kept runnning around after taxis that didn't want to stop. STUPID AH. GO JURONG WEST AT NIGHT FOR WHAAAT. there were probably a hundred taxis, but all hired/on call. so we called a cab, the cab got lost, we found the cab, and we ran for the cab. We got in settled down and laugghhhhhhheeeddddd, hahahahah. & RUPINI, our future ah, our future. But i went out looking like a nerd cos i wasn't in a good mood. I had my 4i pullover, my biiiggg red havasack like as though i was gg to climb mount everest & the hugeeee lit file thats like, yah, huuuge. But nyeheh, NERDS ARE COOOOL, YO! (i mean, just in the Os/As season) Oh, we bought a nice bottled drink bottle and we're gg to write what we did on a piece of paper and put it in the bottle (: & if anyone else read till here, hahahaha, sillybilllly, no significance to you la dey. I wanted to blog this day for my memory (: T'was precious. YOU MAKE ME HAPPPPPYYYYYY, WHEN SKIES ARE GREEEEEEEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. Black also you make me happy, hahah. cool hair & cute hair, lol. Hop around, toink toiink. Hop around, toink toink. 11/03/2007 noone but me from URL @ 5:45 AM There are many things that i want to say to you, im feeling a whole lot of things now. & i dont quite know why. i dont particularly feel like typing properly too and i dont think im gna ask for yr pardon. i just need to ramble. its 5sth in the morning and i fell asleep on ss last night. i was supposed to finish ss last night so that the weekends could be lit devoted. but im only done with 2 themes. great? no. super. i need to do well for ss, but i really wna do well for lit. well, considering that im planning to take lit in jc, i need to do well for lit now too dont i. i mean, its stupid. why take lit for the As when i cant handle the Os. Stupid, thats kinda what i feel like now. & i dont feel like doing the whole studying thing again for the As, especially since its gna be a giant risk with me taking all arts. i would like to go overseas and take psychology. singaporean people are too hard to figure. complex like the rubix cube. anyway, i feel disappointed, and then angry. and then hurt and then defiant. and then upset and then pissed. i dont know. i hate not knowing. its the mistake i made that i never knew i made. the slap in the face i got, for which i never knew why. & then i wonder why im actually subservient to you; wth, its my game too. why. im the kind who'd rather hurt with the truth than not know, hello. i turned someone i thought who was my best friend into an enemy two years ago. i doubt i shed a single tear. & here i am, with this stupid things pouring out. okay whatever. this post is aimless; or it might have a significance not targetted at anyone. yeah, im still the same person. its just the things inside that i guess you never knew existed. shuddup, thank god its the weekend. & i never realised a whole year is gone. June just meant unit camp, and any time after that meant prelims and then Os. no one reminded me that the year's gone by too. its just a month till the next year. i want the stupid rewind button, dammit. or maybe not; i want to pack up and leave. yesterday we watched my dad's car. and i thought of many years ago, how we used to wash his van as a family. mom vaccuum and clean the inside, brother and i with the hose and soap and dad at the wheels. we used to climb onto the top of the van to clean it, and much younger those were thrills. we'd start dry, end soaked. some times i hate so much i wonder where the hate comes from. and then i realise it was for a reason and then i thank god. yeah, the os are ending and every other time i think of it i start laughing, but not now. i just might miss the driven determination of gg home to sit down and study. im gonna feel aimless; aimlessly comfortable i guess. somehow i dont really feel like go go going out, maybe with just specific groups of people or no. maybe its my current mood, cos yest i felt like gg out pretty bad. uh whatever again. these days wre supposed to be with you. there's a lot of things gg on the 11th of december. i can just say goodbye to my chemical romance's concert. and dammit i was really looking forward to that. and there's a significant other thing going on. & the most important would be kathleen kong's birthday. the youngest kid. KATHLEEN KONG IS AN ANGEL (: yeah, kathleen kong is an angel. okay yeah. so i dont really much time left do i. im supposed to be studying. just for these 4 days. damn i hate the feeling of so near yet so far. and i liked my os english compo, it was on heroes and i thought of you & a certain part c. and i liked my os tamil compo, cos it was sad. oh, in both my compos the dad was killed off; no significance. i love my dad, i'd die if he were to really die. i really would. but i think i love my brother the most, i think. he dyed his hair brown. and if he was to read this he'll just go ew. i dont tell my brother i love him like yeah right, as though you do. and okay i think i have rambled sufficiently, i feel relatively better. its all those poisonous thoughts that were consuming my mind, i couldnt get the freaking ss in. but for now, why the sinhalese and the indians fought is more important than you. or so i believe. i want to swim in the kallang river and then drown. or maybe not, packing up and leaving still sounds more tempting. but i wont. cos i love too many people here. im the kind that mean what i say. friends forever was something i still mean with you. laadeedaa; tralalalalalala; feeefifooooooooo. kathleen kong is an angel. im publishing this post without rereading through it. at then end, i still dont know howwhywhat, like wth, i dontknow. but i dont know how i dont love you, like i did, yesterday.
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